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Okay, so, I'm tired and panicky right now, having just moved back home for the summer, and regained the internet, and I probably shouldn't even have been trying to think about this right now. But ... my mind always goes back to my fics under stress, to calm down or something, and we're running up to the final arc, and I've been trying to plot it out a little, and ...
I'm not sure if I'm good enough to do what I want with this. Gah. I know, I know, of all times to be having a panic-attack, the final arc is not the best choice, but ... I've never handled an ensemble cast this big for something this long before. I mean, heroes alone we have six main, seven counting Bobby, plus extras like Anansi. Antagonists weigh in at four strong for main. All of whom are going to be crucial to the final chapters. And I ... I want to do justice to all of them, and I'm not ... I'm not sure I'm that good. I'm not sure I'm that good.
I have the picture in my head. I have at least the showdown scene clear as crystal. I'm just not sure if I'll be able to write it. I mean, the Lucifer-Crowley section alone ... Michael-Zach-Cas-Aziraphale ... Michael-Lucifer ... Michael-Lucifer-Dean-Sam ... Cas-Zachariah ... Gabriel-Raphael ... Raphael-Zachariah ... plus all the pairings, and I have to manage the Horsemen etc in the run-up ...
*headdesks* I know I'm panicking. I have two, three, maybe four chapters to manage this over. I just ... I've never tried anything this big before. I'm freaking out a little, obviously. *sigh* Ignore me.
I'm not sure if I'm good enough to do what I want with this. Gah. I know, I know, of all times to be having a panic-attack, the final arc is not the best choice, but ... I've never handled an ensemble cast this big for something this long before. I mean, heroes alone we have six main, seven counting Bobby, plus extras like Anansi. Antagonists weigh in at four strong for main. All of whom are going to be crucial to the final chapters. And I ... I want to do justice to all of them, and I'm not ... I'm not sure I'm that good. I'm not sure I'm that good.
I have the picture in my head. I have at least the showdown scene clear as crystal. I'm just not sure if I'll be able to write it. I mean, the Lucifer-Crowley section alone ... Michael-Zach-Cas-Aziraphale ... Michael-Lucifer ... Michael-Lucifer-Dean-Sam ... Cas-Zachariah ... Gabriel-Raphael ... Raphael-Zachariah ... plus all the pairings, and I have to manage the Horsemen etc in the run-up ...
*headdesks* I know I'm panicking. I have two, three, maybe four chapters to manage this over. I just ... I've never tried anything this big before. I'm freaking out a little, obviously. *sigh* Ignore me.
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