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That one class. That one fucking class. I have GOT to get over this, I have got to be able to manage this, and I though I did, I thought I could, but then people started floooding in and all I could concentrate on was the fact that there were TWO HUNDRED FUCKING PEOPLE in the room. And it's a big hall, but it is not NEARLY big enough for my sake. Not nearly enough, and you can't get out, because then two hundred pairs of eyes turn to LOOK at you, and you're stuck pinned to the walll, and you can't get out ....
Fuck. Shit. FUCK. Dammit. I've mssed the class after, now, but I couldn't ... I got out, and there wree people, and the sounds of them, and I couldn't go back in, I couldn't MAKE myself go back in, even though I know most of them had left by that stage, but I couldn't ...
Shit, fuck, I need to stop shaking. I need to stop shaking, and thne I need to find a way around this, because last year ... it didn't work last year, and it has to work this year, and fuck, I've got to get over this. I've got to stop shaking and get over this. I've got to. I've got to.
Fuck. Shit. FUCK. Dammit. I've mssed the class after, now, but I couldn't ... I got out, and there wree people, and the sounds of them, and I couldn't go back in, I couldn't MAKE myself go back in, even though I know most of them had left by that stage, but I couldn't ...
Shit, fuck, I need to stop shaking. I need to stop shaking, and thne I need to find a way around this, because last year ... it didn't work last year, and it has to work this year, and fuck, I've got to get over this. I've got to stop shaking and get over this. I've got to. I've got to.